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Name: Kelsey
Birthday: 8/25/1987
Gender: Female
Interests: God, music, learning about people, psychology, art, water sports, worship music, bible studies, dancing
Expertise: piano, drums, art
Occupation: Artist
Industry: Retail
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AIM:  kelsjenelle
MSN: k_smith1406@hotmail.com
Member Since:
2/1/2005
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| HELLO ALL!!!!! So.... God is amazing and is ALWAYS working in everyone's lives. God has been teaching me things in the past months and I feel led to also share it with you all. I shared this testimony with Shining Through a few weeks ago at a church service. I pray that as you read it, God works in you as He did me.
Before the accident with the Bluffton baseball players, I thought I had my life in line. I would wake up each morning and give my day to God. I thought I was listening to Him, but I only wanted to listen to a certain extent. I wanted to have my own control. I didn't put my full trust in Him in situations that I should have. Instead, I said I did, then would go on to use my earthly control.
When I heard about the accident, I was completely devestated. I couldn't imagine what those families and players were going through. I didn't ask the typical questions about "why it happened." Instead, all I could think about was the hurt everyone was going through. The whole next week during Spring Break, I felt an emptiness inside of me. I felt vulnerable and open, that I was not me anymore. I was just there- trying to control things around me and my thoughts as well. But I couldn't, I was just there. More than any time in my life, I was looking up to God, speechless. We came back to school and were supposed to do our normal routine again. But I couldn't. My mind was on the accident and I still felt lost.
Last weekend, God started showing me through other people's testimonies what He was trying to teach me. He liked me being vulnerable. It opened my mind, took away my control, and let me truly give my thoughts to God. It was then, that God could really enter my life. It was giving control to the only one who really had control. It was trusting that my Father knew what He was doing even if I couldn't understand.
1 Peter 1:18 says "YOUR LIFE IS A JOURNEY YOU MUST TRAVEL WITH A DEEP CONSCIOUSNESS OF GOD." God is there, all around us. We need that deep consciousness and open vulnerability to truly live for him everyday.
Events in our lives leave us wounded, but God heals those wounds. Most wounds usually leave scars. When I see that scar, it reminds me of what God taught me through that wound.
You may have only a few or many scars. The accident brought me back to a scar from November of this past year. The wound was when a friend from back home committed suicide. It was hard to see God in this, but He still taught me about life. My scar reminds me of how precious life is, not just to us, but to God. We might struggle and not understand, but God knows how unique, beautiful, and special each life is. We are children of God. Never give up hope. God is always there to lead you through.
Tragedies knock us to our knees and make us feel like we've lost control. God speaks to us and over time, helps us back on our feet. God has showed me that we should always be on our knees. It is there that we are most open to God and vulnerable to what He can do in our life.
Psalm 16 shares how we learn in tragedies and what we learn from situations:
"Keep me safe, oh God, I've run for dear life to you. I say to God, "Be my Lord!" Without you, nothing makes sense.
My choice is you, God, first and only. And now I find I'm your choice.
Day and night I'll stick with God; I've got a good thing going and I'm not letting go.
I'm happy, from the inside out, and from the outside in, I'm firmly formed.
Now you've got my feet on the life path, all radiant from the shining of your face.
Ever since you took my hand, I'm on the right way."
So now, I challenge you. Let your scars be reminders of the amazing things God has done in your life. And no matter what you're going through, struggles, questioning, or happiness, be vulnerable and open to what God has to teach you. Be vulnerable every single day to God, no matter what is going on. It's then that God will work amazingly in our lives.
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| KNIT US BACK TOGETHER...
i went to bed thursday night, nervous about my classes friday but excited to go home for spring break. i woke up friday morning at 7:30 to my roommate running into the room yelling, "Kelsey! the baseball team got in a crash! 6 people died....." i sat up quickly in my bed. omgosh.... are you serious... this can't be... not little old bluffton....
i've never experienced anything like this before... the whole day is a blur to me. i've never seen bluffton like it was. the hardest thing was waiting 8 hours till we found out who it was that died. i recognized a few guys on the team as being my friends boyfriends or walking around campus. but didn't know them too well. the only one i actually knew was david betts. we were in jazz ensemble together. i was praying all day like crazy that he was not one of them that died. on my way home my roommate called me ans said they finally emailed out who died. david was one of them.... i couldn't believe it.... he was always smiling, making jokes, and was such a great player. he was the jock that was friends with everyone, including the band people. he was so fun in jazz. i'm going to miss him...
cody lived in my dorm... i recognize him from being around the dorm. i recognize scott from around campus, and sadly i didn't know tyler.
the thing i do know about these boys is that they left a huge impact on our community. they were loved by so many people. they were the clowns, always-there guy, always-smiling, and always making you laugh.
it's hard to see God in times like these. but sometimes He's there sooo much if we just look. the crash could've been a lot worse, killing more or all. His hand was with them. i really believe there is a reason for all this. whether it's to help ppl realize how precious life is, to live every day without regrets, letting those know who you love that you love them, seeing God in everyone and knowing how much He loves you. God's love is incredible. we could die any day. I hope everyone has excepted his love... i also pray that this will bring bluffton closer together, knitted back together... God's hands are in this, working....
as of right now, there are 2 in critical condition, 1 in serious condition, and a few still in the hospital... i'm asking you to please pray for them.... pray works, and i really hope to see these boys pull through...
i appreciate all your prayers that you have already graciously prayed....
and i'm also thankful for all the comfort and love that people have sent to the families, friends, community, and me. i tell you, my friends are amazing. i'm so thankful for my bluffton friends. i don't think any of could've gotten through friday without each other. thanks bill-- you've been so amazing this weekend, letting me cry, listening to me, comforting me, giving me some laughs... thanks... denise- you are amazing, you're faith in God and seeing Him in everything. my family- comforting and praying. curtis- your message made me cry. you are an amazing brother in Christ, i'm so thankful for you. heidi- for being so persistant in talking to me even though i don't answer my phone. sorry... i just don't feel like talking. but i love you. thanks for caring. and for the other ppl who sent messages, wall-posts, and voicemails... thanks... you guys are amazing
so what do you take from this? i ask you to recognize how precious life is.... your time could be up tomorrow. are you ready?
and please keep praying.... for the boys in the hospital, and for physical and emotional healing of everyone- the team, the families, the friends, the jazz band, the roommates, the floormates, the whole university, and the whole town..... just keep praying.... please......
thank you... i love you all
KNIT US BACK TOGETHER.... | | |
| so everyone's done this... and i'm curious too!
So, here's how it works:
1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. Don't lie and try to pretend your cool...just type it in man!
IF YOUR LIFE WAS A MOVIE WHAT WOULD THE SOUNDTRACK BE?
Opening Credits:
Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas - Yolanda Adams
Waking Up:
My Desire - Jeremy Camp
First Day At School:
Sweet Little Jesus Boy - Rebecca St. James
Falling In Love:
Strong Tower - Kutless
Fight Song:
Slow Dancing in a Burning Room - John Mayer
Breaking Up:
Beautiful World - Coldplay
Prom:
May It Be - Celtic Women
Life:
Without a Sound - SheDaisy
Mental Breakdown:
Bout It - Yung Joc
Driving:
Secret - Reba MacIntire
Flashback:
L-O-V-E - Nat King Cole
Getting Back Together:
Window - Palisade
Wedding:
You Said - Palisade
Birth of Child:
Skid Row - Little Shop of Horrors
Final Battle:
Torn - Natalie Imbrulio
Death Scene:
I Can't Help Falling In Love with You
Funeral Song:
For Your Name - Aquire the Fire
End Credits:
I Just Can't Wait To Be King - The Lion King
lol... very interesting...
can't wait till spring break!!!! yay! corals wedding, family time, working, see friends, anderson!!!, and move back to college :) whoo hoo!
i love you all :) | | |
| so here's the deal.....
Mable, my old Sable, decided that our relationship was done with. sad? yes... but its ok... because i have now moved on! we found a nice used white chrysler sebring!! yay! and i love it....
so what does this have to do with you?
I NEED YOUR HELP!!!!
my sis named my sable Mable... it was lovely :)
but my sebring doesn't have a name yet!!!!
so....
i would looooove for you to give me some names for my sebring!!!!!!
be creative! and funny! and old-fashioned!!! and whatever you feel like being!!!!
THANK YOU!!!!!
I LOVE YOU ALL!!!!!!! | | |
| i think too much
and no i don't mean intelligence thinking....
i mean thinking thinking.
make sense?
lol... ok... anyway....
one of the things that has been on my mind....
i never know what to say. i love meeting new ppl, and i love talking to ppl. friendly talk. joking. deep talks. all of it. i love it. but i never know what to say. i'm so worried about saying the wrong thing, the person reacting wierd to what i'm saying. them thinking "wow she's wierd, why'd she say that". or them thinking "wow i wish she just wouldn't talk." or ppl wishing i was more of a deep talker or more of a joker or more of just friendly talk. like-- how am i supposed to be? i'm supposed to be me. and i am. but sometimes i just don't know what to say. i want conversation to flow easily. just one thing after another. but it doesn't always. i love talking to people, but sometimes i'm shy. yes i can be shy. and its actually kinda wierd. sometimes i'm more talkative to ppl when i don't know them, but then when i'm closer to them its like gosh, what do i say? do they really wanna know whats on my mind? cuz i tell ya-- if i told you exactly what was on my mind all the time, you'd be weighed down. too much deep thinking inside my head!!!! way too much! and sometimes it makes me feel as if other ppl don't deep think like this and i'm the only one. but i love talking to ppl. how can that be? something i love so much i fear at the same time! and i've always had the fear of riding in a car w/ just one other person. what do we talk about? you can't have eye contact when you're driving but i can barely talk w/o eye contact. and sometimes just being one-on-one w/ a person in general. it terrifies me! what if there's silence, how do i fill it? do i look bad if i don't fill it? so much pressure! and when there's a group of 3 its so much less pressure! its just hard. theres so much thats always running through my mind, but if its not what the person wants to hear, why say it?
so this also makes me think, why do i fear so much about what other ppl will think of me? but i do... like i don't really care to a certain extent. i want to be myself and have ppl love me for who i am. but i also want to just be friends w/ a whole bunch of ppl. i love ppl :) they make me happy. and i like talking w/ ppl.
am i the only person that experiences this?? am i just crazy? or does every person secretly go through this an not let anyone else know because of fear? or do just certain types of ppl?
i told you i think too much....
so on the bright side... despite this flaw in me (among many others), God still loves me. and He listens to every word i say even if its stupid. He listens to my soooo many deep thoughts (thankfully!) and cares... what a blessing. Thank you God :) and i'm this way for a reason i guess... who knows why? who knows if i'll ever know? so anyway... this post wasn't supposed to be this long... sorry!!!!
here's some lyrics that goes along w/ this to send you out....
Take Me As I Am - Nicole Nordeman
I never could be good enough
To measure up
But You want to take me as I come
You're the only one that can
Take me as I am
Oh, to feel hope in hopeless times
Never mind the silver lining 'cause the clouds are fine
To breathe prayers that move the heavens
Or save hundreds from the flames
To know my place, to know my name
But the gap grows wider
Betwen who I am and all I aspire to be
At the end of myself, at the end of the day
I can find little else but the courage to say
I need You
That's all
I need You
alrlight :) i love you all :) thanks for putting up w/ one of my many thoughts....
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